Brothers Estranged Track

Brothers Estranged

July
August
September
October
November

The shit we went through and the life we lived.
We didn't choose it all but somehow we survived.
You were there for me a lot of the time it counted
But somehow I forgot how much you mattered.
You were my best friend and heterosexual life mate
My mental health and isolation only turned me to hate
I hated myself. I hated where I was. The voices only made it worse with the paranoia instigating
I feared myself. I feared the world. The voices only made it worse with the paranoia that was driving
I took it out on the ones that I loved out of hate and fear
I only saw an alternate universe that will eventually appear
I thought everyone else knew what I was thinking and seeing
But it only made things worse when better it wasn't getting
You were my best friend and heterosexual life mate
My mental health and isolation only turned me to hate
I hated myself. I hated where I was. The voices only made it worse with the paranoia instigating
I feared myself. I feared the world. The voices only made it worse with the paranoia that was driving
I have spent some time re-evaluating and changing
I yelled and screamed. I cried and started living
I learned a lot about myself and my situation
It wasn't about blame but how to keep in motion
The world is changing and I have to keep adapting
Friends aren't there to keep you in line or going
But to be there when they can and only to a certain extent
I asked and expected too much without any consent
You have a life that you have to live and I've got mine
I hope you can forgive my mistakes in time.