Closure Track

Collecting these thoughts
The same that once tore me apart
Always trying to connect the dots
Finding meaning in an abstract art

Each passing day, as it may
Wondering had I let you slip away
Loosening my grip in a bold way
Feeling a deep cold day void of the suns ray

So scared of reaching out
Thoughts that you won’t reciprocate
I had confidence, I did not doubt
Not wanting to hear my receipt of fate

You were a difficult one to read
What have I done causing this deed?
It just doesn’t feel right, hearts racing speed
Every detail, I had to take heed

Saying this, I do miss you
I enjoyed the likeness of you company
How will I deal with this unanswered issue?
Which personality is true of your many?

The hardest part is not seeing you again
Investing time in a battle I can’t win
Feeling like I’m in a plane caught in a tailspin
Emotional anxieties that deepen

The comfort I found in your eyes
You were laying there right next to me
Staying there until we said our goodbyes
You and I was right where I wanted to be

I can only assume you are not coming back
Thinking of what it was that I lack
Could’ve made changes and tightening the slack
Pulling me like I’m strung on a rack

I often wonder how you’ve been
I wish I could call you like times of old
Feeling a need to mend what’s broken
A closure that may or may not ever unfold

Copyright 2023 Sean Ferree